Hey guys, so I'm running slightly ahead of schedule and have decided to release my new album today! This is my \"quarantine\" album I guess ... I wrote all of these tracks in 2020 in my home studio in Central Pennsylvania. With all the extra time spent indoors this year I put a lot of time into trying to improve my music and visual art. Earlier this year I released an album titled \"Nine\", and I felt that since this new album would be released in the same year, it felt more like an addition to \"Nine\" than a true sequel. So that's why I've labelled this album #9.5.
The general feeling I had while writing this album was a sort of \"building excitement\" for the future. \"Future Eyes\" to me just means looking forward, not backward ... keeping your gaze on the road ahead. Obviously my memories and experiences are very important to me, as this project is called Memory Collector. Despite that though, I think it's important not to get caught up in your own memories, and realize that you can always be creating new ones. Many people including myself are more comfortable living a routine, but sometimes we have to venture out of that comfort zone to make great things happen. This album is basically just a representation of that realization. The rainbow color spectrum emanating from the eyes on the album cover is meant to symbolize moving forward with the full picture (or spectrum) in view. I feel that I have a clear vision of where I want to go from here, and look forward to what lies ahead.
I hope you enjoy this album -- I will update this section with a link to the streaming platforms once the album is available on them! Thank you for listening!
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This year got off to kind of a rough start for me. I was in a really bad place mentally and was struggling with constant negative thoughts, depression, and a sense of impending doom that just wouldn't relent. I felt completely uninterested in writing or even listening to music. I just wanted the bad feelings I was having to end. These feelings were happening as a result of many different things, and I had to work hard to deal with all of them simultaneously as best I could. It was definitely a process, but I realized that even when I started putting just a little effort toward figuring things out, that effort would pay off. So I just kept chipping away at what I felt was this infinite void sucking me in, until one day I finally felt good enough to start writing music again. I've had my ups and downs since that day, but the overall trend is definitely upward, and I feel I am in a good place now and have made peace with many things in my life that were troubling me, things that I was failing to address. I did everything I could to climb out of the hole I was in; there were moments when I didn't think I'd ever make it out. I felt completely hopeless at times, and had very little self-confidence or faith in myself. I have to say it was one of the worst periods of my life, and I'm pretty glad to be out of it. You're never really completely out of the woods when it comes to this stuff, but I feel ok for now.
